random notes from 14 weeks

• i had my first ultrasound two weeks ago... utterly mind blowing. i don't know what i was expecting, maybe just a bit of a blob on a screen but this was a full on baby, kicking, moving, proportional, fingers, little feet, the whole bit. and only 7cm tall at the time. amazing. amazing. so clichéd but i couldn't stop the tears running from the corners of my eyes.

• my body temperature seems to have increased dramatically. i, the one who is perpetually chilled, always reaching for a cardigan, turning the air conditioner off at work, now find myself blinking and unaware when people around me mention that they are cold. the down side of this is, of course, that the hot days feel REALLY hot and i find myself having to have quite cool showers, even when i want them a bit warmer, otherwise i start to feel like i might pass out. having things go a bit dark with a head full of conditioner and a body covered in suds, then facing a shaky recovery sitting on the bath mat at 8am, is quite alarming and something i'm trying to avoid happening again.

• craving bread, toast... my body doesn't like bread... it causes problems, which is a problem 'cause some days there is nothing else i want but plain old toast and butter, then subway for lunch and falafel wraps for dinner. too much bread.

• still tired. still tired. bedtime might forever be 9:30pm.

still

i'm feeling so much better lately, last week especially the exhaustion seemed to lift and a wee bit of clarity returned to my cloudy head. this week some tossing and turning has rendered me tired beyond reason in the evenings yet again but at least i managed some sewing over the weekend plus got in a much overdue catch up with a good friend. we trekked over to flemington market to devour cupcakes, buy some herbs and pick up these amazing roses, two big bunches for a mere $10. they're opening more every day and still looking gorgeous, wish my rose bushes produced buds like these...

anyway, just popping in to say i'm still alive, still hoping to post here more, still meaning to email so many of you back, still sorting through fabric, still hoping to take pics of the new craft room, still planning on updating both shops. at this point it's looking like onegirl handmade may get some new stock this weekend, while i'm working on a massive update to onegirl gathers for february 29th. i've decided to purge sooooo many things while unpacking the craft room boxes so expect lots of goodies there.

more soon... i have ultrasound pics to share (such an amazing experience!) and baby questions to ask but it's nearing the end of the work day and that's when my newly recovered brain functions start to peter out...


::updated to add: i just checked my post in bloglines (as i do, to make sure the pics still show up, etc) and it suddenly says that i have no subscribers!? now, although things have been a bit sparse around here lately, i'm sure that all 170 odd of you haven't spontaneously given up on me for my laziness - can you let me know if i've dropped off your bloglines somehow? cheers::

:: wait! the plot thickens... now each of my blogline feeds say that there are no other subscribers... must just be some sort of glitch. whew::

surfacing

just peeking my head in to say hello, how are you and happy new year : ) i really haven't been up to anything of interest at all, just growing my wee belly and fighting the exhaustion and the heat. oh, the heat! the days over 35ºC (of which there have been many the past month) have reduced me to a miserable, dazed, sodden, whinging mess and i'm already longing for autumn. shane bought me a hammock for christmas and i spent copious amounts of time swaying in the breeze below the lemon tree when it was cool enough over the holidays, devouring book after book, until i'd put away 7 novels in three weeks (too lazy to type out all the titles right now but barbara kingsolver and margaret atwood were heavily featured, along with david eggers). my craft room is, for the most part, finished and unpacking has begun. i just need to find a nice, deep shelving unit for my fabric so i can sort through the 10 or so boxes and decide what i'm keeping and what is heading into the gathers shop. the photo above is baxter's new designated spot on the sofabed in the craft room, he's quite pleased to sit there and watch me put things in their place. it's supposed to be nice and cool this weekend so i have grand plans to finally get something accomplished, possibly *gasp* even some sewing. if nothing else, i'll grab some pics of the teak shelving unit in the craft room so i have something to show and tell next week.