Sunday, 11 April 2010
it's a sorry state of affairs when i resort to doing monthly updates but there you have it. too many things to do and all of it vying for that precious bit of time when mae is asleep and my back isn't screaming at me to LAY DOWN, already. the pregnancy is going perfectly but i feel like all symptoms are happening 6 weeks ahead of time, like the heartburn and sciatic back pain that flared up in earnest the last four weeks i was pregnant with mae decided to show their faces with ten weeks to go this time (and that's still nine long weeks of sharp, random back pain staring me in the face - not fun). and i feel pretty huge, like surely there can't be too much more to grow when really i know i am kidding myself and will likely balloon out further yet. and i feel so much more tired at this stage than i did when i was pregnant with mae which is bizzare considering i am sleeping so much better this time (probably as a result of being sleep deprived for a year and half). the unending tiredness was unexpected and has taken me a long time to come to terms with, the letting go of custom and planned projects and the "responsibility" to this blog and the guilt that goes with it. i've finally accepted that the next couple of years of my life are going to have to be devoted to raising my children and my creativity, although still a priority to feed, is going to have to come a distant second. it's actually a bit freeing to allow myself to not worry about shop updates and new product development and just make whatever i feel like or have time for or whatever we actually need. in saying that, i'm happy to announce that i will be doing one final shop update on may 1st, with a couple of oobees and windsees that i started for an easter update (that obviously never happened and i beat myself up about and that led to the final big, long, relieved sigh when i realised that i don't HAVE to update my shop, i've got babies to grow and toddlers to wrestle and naps to take) and the small bit of leftover stock from christmas that i was saving for the march mathilda's market that i ended up pulling out of (i've pulled out of the stitches & craft show in may as well which is a huge weight off my shoulders but i will so miss the good times to be had with the other incubator folk... boo). it will feel great to get this stock out into the world and free up a bit of space in my sewing room, which will have to double as a nursery until the new baby is ready to share with maesey.